It is certainly clear that sometimes things really get complicated fast. It's time to sit back take a deep breath and realize you really wanted this. You are the one that really wanted this. So maybe it's not that you don't want it anymore, but you're scared because it's all coming together so quickly. Sometimes it's easier just to want and to wish than to have??? Like how instant millionaires lose their fortunes because they never thought they would have it...just how to play for it. They never change their mind set. Time to change your mind set. You have to rem'ber how much you wanted this that you had decided this was good for you. Appreciate you wanted it and why. Love and marriage isn't a "COMMITMENT" like people stamp on you, it's a glorified friendship. It is companionship, it's fun and it's entertaining. And, like every relationship will have it's share of tears and challenges. But that doesn't make it something to dread, if it did we wouldn't connect with anyone in our lives, ever. Stop thinking of it as GETTING MARRIED...think of it as getting to enjoy your ultimate friend as room-mates. :)